Mon 0706 At terminal LA Vencedora waiting for bus to volcano, which guy with rifle (? Not a gun person) on door told me goes at 740. Sign says to pay on the bus. So we are probably OK.
Didn't sleep great. I woke about midnight, possibly people coming back but possibly not. I had vague pseudo dreams of being disoriented and not knowing where the hell I was or where I was supposed to be going in the morning. I got back to sleep and probably woke again about 4 at which point I commenced fitfully drifting in and out of sleep and feeling just slightly cold and apprehensive. Got up at 610 preempting 615 alarm.
I had the last three sandwiches worth of my bread and mortadela after cleaning teeth and putting sun block on. Wearing fleece and "second wear" black top, also on a sudden whim brought cleanish red ss top in my bag so I can use it for layering though I don't expect it will be needed.
I brought both phones just in case, the a06 sim might need a top up buy I *can* likely top it up if necessary. Rhythm heavy but not otherwise overly remixed "don't dream it's over" playing.
Don't feel too bad. Bit "fuck" getting up but I am mostly awake now and I suspect the worst is over, so to speak. Stomach feels pretty OK actually.
Had a very quick looking on hostelworld and booking. Com at the lake hostel after had sandwiches and while killing time but no change, basically for tomorrow night they have that one 40+ dollar room. Not worrying about this any more until after the volcano, I will have to take a view on things when I am back at the hostel this afternoon.
0713 yeah, a06 has no connection there is actually a kiosk here inside the terminal with a Tigo sign but I don't really want to start dealing with this now, I likely could but I also don't strongly anticipate needing to get an Uber back or whatever and as I say if I can I could likely top up there and then or - since I do have both phones - just use a hotspot on the P7, which has my general travel-ish international pay for data no expiry SIM in (and I could maybe book an Uber on it, but I don't have the actual app on there and although in a pinxb the website might work, I'd feel safer using the real app on the A06). So yes, I don't need to top up urgently while I have both phones, and while I don't want to over economise and cause myself stress or hassle, I nay be able to avoid topping up the A06 tigo credit for a day or two. I also strongly suspect, though it is academic, that there would be a Tigo kiosk at the bottom of the volcano trail where I might conceivably (but don't expect to) miss the last bus back, which I think Alexandra told me was 1ish. I don't mean a dedicated Tigo kiosk, but almost every little soft drink and snacks and so on type stall here sells phone credit.
"Self control" just came on. :-)
I don't know if all the kiosks would put the credit on my phone for me but they probably would and in an emergency I could likely do it myself even if I screwed up and didn't pick the right option to get the actual deal I wanted.
0723 just tried to go through the boarding door as some locals going through and security type chap waved me back, saying 740 in English. Just don't want to miss the damn thing...
"Staying Alive"
A handful of tourist types are accumulating, which is reassuring.
One woman is walking around with her phone sort of wedged under her upper arm/armpit. Sort of an interesting idea if you need hands free, but I think I'd be way too worried about letting it go by accident.
Didn't need a shit this morning despite trying. I hope the sandwiches won't have woken my digestive system up. But I went so much yesterday. And tbh there are likely to be facilities at some points.
I am wearing cap but brought the bandanna so I can switch if I am getting worried about the cap blowing off in the wind.
0746 on bus. 70 cents. The bus has the destination cerro Verde on a banner on windscreen that looks permanent ish but there is only one bus a day?!
We're off.
1002 hiking up. Guide says second most active volcano in country, last eruption 2005.
23xxm height,tallest in El Salvador. Not highest mountain, that is 27xxm, but highest volcano.
1026 just snapped itzalco, which j think is youngest volcano and hostel mentions loss of walking up it, albeit prob won't in this trip.
1318 just pulling out on bus after. Not spoken to but been near and inevitably listening to an apparently British couple (he sounds a bit scouse) who lwere in the terminal this morning with a roughly 5 yo girl and a 4 yo boy (Gigi and Fin?) and who are in a 3 week trip. The girl apparently walked all the way up herself, and although her dad carried her part of the way down I was walking just in front if then and could see she was indeed walking and keeping up with everyone somehow.
1404 been falling asleep really badly. We just had to change (without paying) onto a different bus at a big cloverleaf type intersection.
1646 ok. I got back to hostel after having an ice cream in street and buying a 1.5l bottle coke zero which I drank out of a glass back here.
Looked into hostel at lake and spoke to Douglas and another guy here. I wa-ed the hostel direct and went out to get a haircut (usd3, not overdue but roughly on schedule and probably helps me look a bit better and good to get these little chores done) and when I got back they said they had no availability tue. So I had confirmed I could keep my bed here tue night and will pay in a minute and I have booked a private room for usd26 at the lake hostel for wed night. It isn't ideal to "lose" a day but it may serendipitously work out socially, I will probably do walking or food tour tomorrow and go swim at sapopa tomorrow 2pmish and then I have swum in all three pools here so that isn't nothing. It is vaguely scary that Friday will be 3 weeks in but there is still a lot left and although right now it sort of feels as though the last week has been nothing that is far from true, the 4 nights in juayua were far from wasted and nor was doing the volcano today.
The hike up was fine, very slow, earwigged on some dullish chat, all very slow due to huge numbers going up but pretty cool views at top, had some Mani garapinado sitting up there and tried to feel present and snapped way too many photos etc but yes definitely worth doing if a little bit too easy to give a massive sense of achievement - but still worthwhile and pleasant.
1921 showered and shaved, back at hostel. It is surprisingly fill and rather intimidating. There is a cooking class but especially as it is not free and I did it once already I don't really want to do it again. Having one of my beers. Feel decidedly old, out of it and BNM but we will see what happens and no big deal if nothing happens.
I went for a serious wander before dark and could not find anything remotely like LA bendicion in Juayua. In the end I went to Manhattan and had 4 pupusas which were OK but really not amazing or mega cheap, then for lost as my offline gmaps are not working at all and there is no data on that sim, but no major problem.
Anyway, let us are what happens.
2005 about to have second beer I am one of three phone-staring losers sitting in the lounge. The cooking class is amazingly busy, there must just be wah more people here than when I did it. I have no idea what will happen later but fick it. It is a bit annoying I cannot sit outside because there are no tables not uses by the cooking class, such is life.
2020 my nose feels and has been feeling oddly sort of bunged up. I do wonder if dust got up there during the volcano hike. It doesn't really feel like a cold as such.
2055 finished second beer. Cooking class still in full swing, with an amazingly unpleasantly cheesy smell. An oldish american guy (fwiw) has joined the two young guys playing pool, one of whom had never seen a bridge before?! And her eis me assuming that I couldn't possibly join in because I am too old and too bad at pool.
I really don't know what to so. It isn't much fun sitting here. The crowd is so big and also a bit "pseudo hot but also rather annoying young american college girl" dominated that I frankly can't seriously imagine going on with a group if they do go on anywhere (hostels own bar is shut, but somewhere else might be possible) and having a pleasant chat with someone feels unlikely.
I could go people watch in the main square but I am not massively keen.
Since I am not in the class and it is still going on anyway, I can't really join in and chat to anyone as such even without vague social, shyness and age issues.
Not writing tonight off, nor am I desperate, but thinking of that thing about how taxi drivers have good and bad nights in it would be logical for them to knock off early on bad nights and work longer on good nights, but in practice they tend to keep at it until they earn X on any given night (so longer on bad nights and less on good) and then go home. Maybe tonight is just a bad night and I shouldn't stress about it or try too hard etc. I half wish I had bought myself a third beer. I have my aguardiente but not keen to drink it neat and no coffee here to conveniently slip it into.
2115 come out to mill a bit but it feels awkward as fuck. I am genuinely yawning as well. I really don't fucking know what to do. There is still some pupusa cooking going on too. It just feels slightly over-feeble to go to bed, yet on the other hand I (perhaps just meta thinking) feel kind of fed up and disinterested in making an effort and massively out of it etc.
2121 yeah, phone p7 just wigged out massively and lost a load of shit.
Come out to the street to have somewhere to mill unobtrusively. They have taken the walking tour posters down junhelpfully. And replaces them with posters about cooking classes Mon wed and for and spaniah classes tue and thu. I'll may do Spanish class tomorrow, well see. But this cooking class thing tho it won't affect me feels shit for socialising even for people younger and more outgoing tban me, since who is going to want to so it more than once, yet the night in the hostel will revolve around participation and the included drinks for the participants?
Maybe I could/shoild have made an effort to chat with someone tonight despite the class, maybe I am on a bit of a downer, or maybe I am too old/socially unskilled even if someone else could talk to people tonight without participating in the class? Really not sure.
I will go in and mill about a bit and probably genuinely look a bit of a weird loner and or desperate and well see how it goes and maybe I will just cut my losses and go to bed soonish.
2127 just done Duolingo out in street. I am going to go in but frankly there ia some really weird gulf between me and everyone else today which feels beyond the usual. I am really not sure I feel up to trying to speak to some random who doesn't know me from Adam or have any reason to want to talk to me, it is all a bit depressing.
Pseuod karaoke from bar el chino really tempts me to go across. Maybe j should have a beer or two and fuck it, even if I am sitting on my own.
2134 fuck it. After coming over, turning back and then changing my mind, I am in el chino. There is the table of the owner and his friends and two somewhat drunk women who were doing pseudo karaoke and that's it. But I have a beer and a seat, neither of which i had at the hostel, and I have made a bit of a stand against being sent to bed by the weirdly hostile atmosphere there. I will probably have one or two here, go back, if things are somehow calmer but not empty I may chat to someone, and if not i can at least go to bed feeling I didn't just knuckle under.
It is weird but I have just had this weird feeling of invisibility in the hostel today and perhaps to a lesser extent yesterday.
Half wish I wasn't staying tomorrow but things may be different, I did not even aim to stay because the atmosphere was friendly or anything, and I can eg swim at sapopa with the extra day regardless of any social dynamics.
3d wolf print poster thing (lenticular) on the wall by my table.
2145 p7 just crashed again. Not great. Didn't lose any text this time.
I guess just need to accept that despite no obvious cause I feel broadly shit and out of it today and go to bed soonish and try to be up for a walking tour (I can ask reception where to go even if they have taken the posters down) and aim for a swim and some maybe quality milling around and or making plans or whatever time tomorrow and try not to let things get me down.
I can't rule out that ive just been socially shit today or lately but it really does feel like there's some weird extra dimension or layer to it.
2154 ok just about finished beer. No point chasing anything when things aren't feeling fun. Barring some obvious change in the dynamic at the hostel I am just going to do my teeth and go to bed when I get back (it ia literally across the road). If there are any lessons to be learned I can attempt to learn then tomorrow. Things feel more shit than just "I am old and simply don't fit in because of that", to be clear.
2209 8n bed. A few other people in dorm and sitting around on own. Part of the problem is that thanks to the invention of the smartphone, I ha e no way to tell if some random loner is open to chat and just killing time or is happily busy. And that ia even before we layer on "do they want to talk to a weird old guy" and me thinking "I know I shouldn't, but frankly this guy looks like a jumped up twat or a nerd or whatever and do I really want to talk to him?"
But let's send this.
And to repeat myself, at least I did not stick on here another night out of some misguided idea it was a super friendly environment or that I knew people here. It would have been silly to go to another random hostel doe one night, not to mention disruption of having moved. And this place is probably broadly ok, although tonight really does shake my faith a bit.
Didn't sleep great. I woke about midnight, possibly people coming back but possibly not. I had vague pseudo dreams of being disoriented and not knowing where the hell I was or where I was supposed to be going in the morning. I got back to sleep and probably woke again about 4 at which point I commenced fitfully drifting in and out of sleep and feeling just slightly cold and apprehensive. Got up at 610 preempting 615 alarm.
I had the last three sandwiches worth of my bread and mortadela after cleaning teeth and putting sun block on. Wearing fleece and "second wear" black top, also on a sudden whim brought cleanish red ss top in my bag so I can use it for layering though I don't expect it will be needed.
I brought both phones just in case, the a06 sim might need a top up buy I *can* likely top it up if necessary. Rhythm heavy but not otherwise overly remixed "don't dream it's over" playing.
Don't feel too bad. Bit "fuck" getting up but I am mostly awake now and I suspect the worst is over, so to speak. Stomach feels pretty OK actually.
Had a very quick looking on hostelworld and booking. Com at the lake hostel after had sandwiches and while killing time but no change, basically for tomorrow night they have that one 40+ dollar room. Not worrying about this any more until after the volcano, I will have to take a view on things when I am back at the hostel this afternoon.
0713 yeah, a06 has no connection there is actually a kiosk here inside the terminal with a Tigo sign but I don't really want to start dealing with this now, I likely could but I also don't strongly anticipate needing to get an Uber back or whatever and as I say if I can I could likely top up there and then or - since I do have both phones - just use a hotspot on the P7, which has my general travel-ish international pay for data no expiry SIM in (and I could maybe book an Uber on it, but I don't have the actual app on there and although in a pinxb the website might work, I'd feel safer using the real app on the A06). So yes, I don't need to top up urgently while I have both phones, and while I don't want to over economise and cause myself stress or hassle, I nay be able to avoid topping up the A06 tigo credit for a day or two. I also strongly suspect, though it is academic, that there would be a Tigo kiosk at the bottom of the volcano trail where I might conceivably (but don't expect to) miss the last bus back, which I think Alexandra told me was 1ish. I don't mean a dedicated Tigo kiosk, but almost every little soft drink and snacks and so on type stall here sells phone credit.
"Self control" just came on. :-)
I don't know if all the kiosks would put the credit on my phone for me but they probably would and in an emergency I could likely do it myself even if I screwed up and didn't pick the right option to get the actual deal I wanted.
0723 just tried to go through the boarding door as some locals going through and security type chap waved me back, saying 740 in English. Just don't want to miss the damn thing...
"Staying Alive"
A handful of tourist types are accumulating, which is reassuring.
One woman is walking around with her phone sort of wedged under her upper arm/armpit. Sort of an interesting idea if you need hands free, but I think I'd be way too worried about letting it go by accident.
Didn't need a shit this morning despite trying. I hope the sandwiches won't have woken my digestive system up. But I went so much yesterday. And tbh there are likely to be facilities at some points.
I am wearing cap but brought the bandanna so I can switch if I am getting worried about the cap blowing off in the wind.
0746 on bus. 70 cents. The bus has the destination cerro Verde on a banner on windscreen that looks permanent ish but there is only one bus a day?!
We're off.
1002 hiking up. Guide says second most active volcano in country, last eruption 2005.
23xxm height,tallest in El Salvador. Not highest mountain, that is 27xxm, but highest volcano.
1026 just snapped itzalco, which j think is youngest volcano and hostel mentions loss of walking up it, albeit prob won't in this trip.
1318 just pulling out on bus after. Not spoken to but been near and inevitably listening to an apparently British couple (he sounds a bit scouse) who lwere in the terminal this morning with a roughly 5 yo girl and a 4 yo boy (Gigi and Fin?) and who are in a 3 week trip. The girl apparently walked all the way up herself, and although her dad carried her part of the way down I was walking just in front if then and could see she was indeed walking and keeping up with everyone somehow.
1404 been falling asleep really badly. We just had to change (without paying) onto a different bus at a big cloverleaf type intersection.
1646 ok. I got back to hostel after having an ice cream in street and buying a 1.5l bottle coke zero which I drank out of a glass back here.
Looked into hostel at lake and spoke to Douglas and another guy here. I wa-ed the hostel direct and went out to get a haircut (usd3, not overdue but roughly on schedule and probably helps me look a bit better and good to get these little chores done) and when I got back they said they had no availability tue. So I had confirmed I could keep my bed here tue night and will pay in a minute and I have booked a private room for usd26 at the lake hostel for wed night. It isn't ideal to "lose" a day but it may serendipitously work out socially, I will probably do walking or food tour tomorrow and go swim at sapopa tomorrow 2pmish and then I have swum in all three pools here so that isn't nothing. It is vaguely scary that Friday will be 3 weeks in but there is still a lot left and although right now it sort of feels as though the last week has been nothing that is far from true, the 4 nights in juayua were far from wasted and nor was doing the volcano today.
The hike up was fine, very slow, earwigged on some dullish chat, all very slow due to huge numbers going up but pretty cool views at top, had some Mani garapinado sitting up there and tried to feel present and snapped way too many photos etc but yes definitely worth doing if a little bit too easy to give a massive sense of achievement - but still worthwhile and pleasant.
1921 showered and shaved, back at hostel. It is surprisingly fill and rather intimidating. There is a cooking class but especially as it is not free and I did it once already I don't really want to do it again. Having one of my beers. Feel decidedly old, out of it and BNM but we will see what happens and no big deal if nothing happens.
I went for a serious wander before dark and could not find anything remotely like LA bendicion in Juayua. In the end I went to Manhattan and had 4 pupusas which were OK but really not amazing or mega cheap, then for lost as my offline gmaps are not working at all and there is no data on that sim, but no major problem.
Anyway, let us are what happens.
2005 about to have second beer I am one of three phone-staring losers sitting in the lounge. The cooking class is amazingly busy, there must just be wah more people here than when I did it. I have no idea what will happen later but fick it. It is a bit annoying I cannot sit outside because there are no tables not uses by the cooking class, such is life.
2020 my nose feels and has been feeling oddly sort of bunged up. I do wonder if dust got up there during the volcano hike. It doesn't really feel like a cold as such.
2055 finished second beer. Cooking class still in full swing, with an amazingly unpleasantly cheesy smell. An oldish american guy (fwiw) has joined the two young guys playing pool, one of whom had never seen a bridge before?! And her eis me assuming that I couldn't possibly join in because I am too old and too bad at pool.
I really don't know what to so. It isn't much fun sitting here. The crowd is so big and also a bit "pseudo hot but also rather annoying young american college girl" dominated that I frankly can't seriously imagine going on with a group if they do go on anywhere (hostels own bar is shut, but somewhere else might be possible) and having a pleasant chat with someone feels unlikely.
I could go people watch in the main square but I am not massively keen.
Since I am not in the class and it is still going on anyway, I can't really join in and chat to anyone as such even without vague social, shyness and age issues.
Not writing tonight off, nor am I desperate, but thinking of that thing about how taxi drivers have good and bad nights in it would be logical for them to knock off early on bad nights and work longer on good nights, but in practice they tend to keep at it until they earn X on any given night (so longer on bad nights and less on good) and then go home. Maybe tonight is just a bad night and I shouldn't stress about it or try too hard etc. I half wish I had bought myself a third beer. I have my aguardiente but not keen to drink it neat and no coffee here to conveniently slip it into.
2115 come out to mill a bit but it feels awkward as fuck. I am genuinely yawning as well. I really don't fucking know what to do. There is still some pupusa cooking going on too. It just feels slightly over-feeble to go to bed, yet on the other hand I (perhaps just meta thinking) feel kind of fed up and disinterested in making an effort and massively out of it etc.
2121 yeah, phone p7 just wigged out massively and lost a load of shit.
Come out to the street to have somewhere to mill unobtrusively. They have taken the walking tour posters down junhelpfully. And replaces them with posters about cooking classes Mon wed and for and spaniah classes tue and thu. I'll may do Spanish class tomorrow, well see. But this cooking class thing tho it won't affect me feels shit for socialising even for people younger and more outgoing tban me, since who is going to want to so it more than once, yet the night in the hostel will revolve around participation and the included drinks for the participants?
Maybe I could/shoild have made an effort to chat with someone tonight despite the class, maybe I am on a bit of a downer, or maybe I am too old/socially unskilled even if someone else could talk to people tonight without participating in the class? Really not sure.
I will go in and mill about a bit and probably genuinely look a bit of a weird loner and or desperate and well see how it goes and maybe I will just cut my losses and go to bed soonish.
2127 just done Duolingo out in street. I am going to go in but frankly there ia some really weird gulf between me and everyone else today which feels beyond the usual. I am really not sure I feel up to trying to speak to some random who doesn't know me from Adam or have any reason to want to talk to me, it is all a bit depressing.
Pseuod karaoke from bar el chino really tempts me to go across. Maybe j should have a beer or two and fuck it, even if I am sitting on my own.
2134 fuck it. After coming over, turning back and then changing my mind, I am in el chino. There is the table of the owner and his friends and two somewhat drunk women who were doing pseudo karaoke and that's it. But I have a beer and a seat, neither of which i had at the hostel, and I have made a bit of a stand against being sent to bed by the weirdly hostile atmosphere there. I will probably have one or two here, go back, if things are somehow calmer but not empty I may chat to someone, and if not i can at least go to bed feeling I didn't just knuckle under.
It is weird but I have just had this weird feeling of invisibility in the hostel today and perhaps to a lesser extent yesterday.
Half wish I wasn't staying tomorrow but things may be different, I did not even aim to stay because the atmosphere was friendly or anything, and I can eg swim at sapopa with the extra day regardless of any social dynamics.
3d wolf print poster thing (lenticular) on the wall by my table.
2145 p7 just crashed again. Not great. Didn't lose any text this time.
I guess just need to accept that despite no obvious cause I feel broadly shit and out of it today and go to bed soonish and try to be up for a walking tour (I can ask reception where to go even if they have taken the posters down) and aim for a swim and some maybe quality milling around and or making plans or whatever time tomorrow and try not to let things get me down.
I can't rule out that ive just been socially shit today or lately but it really does feel like there's some weird extra dimension or layer to it.
2154 ok just about finished beer. No point chasing anything when things aren't feeling fun. Barring some obvious change in the dynamic at the hostel I am just going to do my teeth and go to bed when I get back (it ia literally across the road). If there are any lessons to be learned I can attempt to learn then tomorrow. Things feel more shit than just "I am old and simply don't fit in because of that", to be clear.
2209 8n bed. A few other people in dorm and sitting around on own. Part of the problem is that thanks to the invention of the smartphone, I ha e no way to tell if some random loner is open to chat and just killing time or is happily busy. And that ia even before we layer on "do they want to talk to a weird old guy" and me thinking "I know I shouldn't, but frankly this guy looks like a jumped up twat or a nerd or whatever and do I really want to talk to him?"
But let's send this.
And to repeat myself, at least I did not stick on here another night out of some misguided idea it was a super friendly environment or that I knew people here. It would have been silly to go to another random hostel doe one night, not to mention disruption of having moved. And this place is probably broadly ok, although tonight really does shake my faith a bit.